Week Eight: Weigh In

Weight: 205lbs

Hi Friends,
Today is my Auntie Mel's funeral and I have work at the shoe store this morning. So I will make this short. I know that change is coming in my life and with an extra angel up in Heaven watching over me and my family I know things are going to be getting better.

I will feel better about myself. I will make this happen. I DID slack off, and I DID  make excuses. The thing is, I can still do this. I can still make myself feel amazing by my birthday. I am starting up again.

I love you guys, thanks for being there for me.
xoxo,
M

Week Seven: Weigh In

Weight: 204 lbs

Today, I have a lot on my mind. I just need to get it all out because I honestly think it will help. This morning I got an email from my grandpa. It was a forwarded message from my grandma about my Auntie Mel. She is doing her last treatments and then going into hospice. The cancer is in her bones and throughout her body. They are trying to save her eyes but they give her two months. Honestly, my family is really all we have ever had- each other. We didn't all go to college, we don't have lots of world knowledge, we try to strive for ourselves and for each other. When my grandma's mother passed away last year (right before my wedding and baby shower) it was hard on her, I know because Auntie Mel was just diagnosed and she was on two different floors of the same hospital all day. I can't even imagine the pain she is going through right now. I wish I could be with her and help her through this. She is the strongest, most loving woman I have ever known- and I know a lot of amazing women.

My dad, Mark is also going through treatments. He is extremely positive and I know he will fight it and get through but he is my dad. He has been there since I was six months old. The cancer has not spread. It will not spread. I am in constant prayer mode for him and it is always in the back of my mind.

I am supporting my family right now, working 53-57 hours a week. I am frantically searching for a more stable job, one that I know will not be closing down. One that I can do what I love to do and challenge myself and work my way up. I love Yankee and all the girls I work with, and I don't ever want to leave! ( I don't think I will either haha) but I do need to find something to replace Takken's, because it is killing me with the amount of stuff I WANT to do and the fact that it is not my place to do everything I want to do there.
Nick is in school full time and watching Charlotte, we got a LOT of help from our families and I don't know what we would do without them. We are truly blessed, in every sense of the word.

Now, why am I writing all this on a weight loss blog? Mainly because I know that for me, stress and emotions are a HUGE part of my eating habits. When everything is going good, I can stay focused and the weight falls off. With everything else going on in my life, I want to eat comfort food. I want to sleep all day and watch movies and play with my daughter. I do not want to go to work. I don't want to exercise ( I haven't) and I don't want to eat healthy ( Ha!) but I DO have to go to work. This may just be me complaining, which is fine. I know that millions of people do what they need to do, even when they don't want to. Apparently I am doing it too, because my sales are up! lol.

Anyway, the point of this whole blog post is, I am staying at this weight until I get focused again. This might sound like a list of excuses, and if it is I am ok with that, because I am not perfect. This is where I am in my life, completely raw and honest.

Week Six: Weigh In

Weight: 205 lbs

Yes, I am a little disappointed in myself today, especially because mid week I was down to 203! I let myself get side tracked by life, NO EXCUSES, MCKENZIE!

Ok, so in order to stay motivated (besides all the reasons I have previously listed) I am making myself a goal rewards chart. Now, even though I have already come so far, I have not rewarded myself besides praise and excitement. Here is my first goal:

199lbs- once I hit this it will be the first time below 200 in a VERY long time. Which is really sad for me to say but I will be so excited! Then every ten pounds after that I will reward myself. I was thinking a few of them could be a pair of UGG Australia boots, a service at the ivy and some self pampering and I really don't know what else, depends on when I get there I guess. Any ideas for me??

Anyway, today I went on a long walk and tried to run up hill. My nose, lips and ears were freezing but it is a BEAUTIFUL day outside! I feel good for today being my 15th day of work in a row. I did start wheezing after my walk this morning but I think my lungs were just cold ;) but tomorrow is my day off and I am soooooooooo excited to be spending it with my big EIGHT month old girl (who is currently 18 pounds!) and my loving husband ( I don't weigh him- I love him just the way he is!) and whatever our day holds.

I am staying motivated my friends, I HAVE to- my birthday is 30 weeks away!!! Can you just imagine how much progress I can make in THIRTY WEEKS??


xoxo,
M

Women's Health

This week I am going to try something new. Instead of just going off of what I consider "healthy" I am going to follow a meal plan from women's health magazine. Pinterest helped me find this six week meal plan, I am starting on a Friday but that's o.k because it's better to start right away then make excuses and put it off (like I have for years now.) So here is Monday's meal plan:

Monday

Breakfast

3 Scrambled Eggs
1 large grapefruit

Snack

25 almonds

Lunch

Turkey Wrap
1 apple

Snack

1 piece of string cheese

Dinner

Spicy Chicken and Pasta

Side salad and 2 Tbsp olive oil/vinegar dressing

Everyday should be around 1,500 calories and will give me enough energy but I will still be losing weight. Oh, did I mention I will be cooking? Yup, this week I will be cooking (with Nick's help and over seeing eye, of course!)

Let's see how this goes!

xoxo,
M